Well, this is the first post that I’ve begun whilst in transit… Am on the last leg of my journey ,having spent the first two thinking through some stuff.
Still no closer to any answers though.
More than likely there are going to be some big changes happening over the next few months, although in some ways it really won’t seem like it.
I often get asked if I believe in fate. Serendipity, most definitely. Fate, sometimes. Ultimately I think I probably believe that everything that happens has something to teach us, whether it stems from a good choice or a bad one, although there are some lessons which are mandatory, which circumstance will often conspire to put you in the place you need to be to learn that particular lesson.
I’m getting better at noticing these times, and slowly learning to go with them rather than against, having learnt the hard way that sooner or later it WILL happen. This time it’s not something I envisaged happening at all, but its a means to an end rather than the thing itself, and yes I’m being deliberately vague about it because it’s very early days yet. Several lessons to be had out of this though, if I’m willing to learn, and whilst the catalyst for change is nearly always difficult, I guess it’s as much about being open to the possibilities as it is anything else. The other thing I have learned over time is that life will never give you more than you are capable of dealing with. Whether it means that you realise that actually, you’re stronger than you think, or someone comes alongside you to help you when it gets too much (or maybe to kick you up the arse when needed) it is something to take comfort in. It doesn’t mean that I’m ready to leap into the pool of murky uncertainty yet, by any means, but it does mean that the urge to run is a lot less than it used to be.
This particular time, a few things are starting to make sense that I was previously unable to reconcile- another thing which indicates this is the right move for me at this time.
When you’re fighting the universe then you face opposition. Sounds like a simple statement, and in truth, it is, but it’s something that we would all do well to remember from time to time. Things become difficult and the flow that exists when you are going in the right direction and makes things seem easier just isn’t there. Conversely, when you’re going in the right direction then obstacles that do arise are easily overcome, or turn out to not be what they seemed. Doesn’t mean everything is plain sailing though, more that being able to jump and make the leap is a little easier, even though it still requires faith….